well I know it has been a very long time since I wrote one of these. I have had a lot of emotional stuff happen to me in the meantime that I don’t want to go through and don’t feel like spilling my guts about so I haven’t felt the need to write something on this. I have tried to get into this one clinic for fibro but have found out that I will not get into the clinic since I need more help than they offer. I know it is for the best and the program is only 3 months and I need more than that but it still feels like a little kick in the gut. But I am pulling myself up and moving on and hoping I will get into the next clinic which I am on the waiting list for an intake.

 But enough of that. I am going to a concert tonight, and I can not wait. it is for Nightwish and the opening act is Pain….. if that doesn’t really tell you what kind of music it is I don’t know what will LOL…. I have always had a love of hard rock and heavy metal that I go through phases where I must listen to it all the time. I think it is driving Dennis nuts but hey, I’m having a great time. I think he might be a little scared that I will go back to a little of my old self, the somewhat “goth” me. The somber clothes, the hard music, basically going off the deep end hehehe. I do get times where I just have to be like that, guess he is just not used to it. All I can say is, I am so happy at this moment, with the concert and hanging out with my friends listening to this music. getting lost in it. I just need a chance to be like this sometimes. The old me with a little new mixed in. We all need to be a little crazy sometimes… too bad I got rid of all the good clothes and would have to get some new stuff… maybe I will for those moments I am out by myself or with friends so Dennis doesn’t have a heart attack LOL…

Well it is time to get my clothes out of the laundry and get ready for a night of loud music and great times. At some point I need to just do what I want, no questions asked (don’t worry by myself) and CARPE DIEM!!